Erased [Part 1]

The essential concept and the first truth, where life seems irrational, meaningless, and worsening, make me fall back to my previous condition and revert to the old rules to maintain a higher state.

 

So, I slackened my pace as I got tired and relaxed my efforts.

 

But what if one of us kept on holding on? I always wondered, "Will you leave behind your morally repugnant customs?" Being such an abominator to feel that someone (me) has peaked in their real life.

 

But then, a thought always entered my mind: "Would I ever really be enough?" So, to not die under this question, there were as many heroic undertakings to make everything better for you. Had you made a last desperate attempt to show some correct behavior, we could have tinged the sky purple and pink together (the sunsets I love and maybe you too).

 

Just realizing how dope the purple-pink jerseys would have been while digging up the playlist I made for you with a bunch of my favorite songs to listen to on a runaway to some places where they would never find us. But I had to delete it, basically revoking the blessings I would have given you. You actually didn't deserve to hear this much heat.

 

Let's make it easy, or let the words begin to lift from my hollow skin or fall from your mouth just because I'm listening. Call me heartless, cold, clingy, vernacular, or place me in the dirt.

 

Well, for me now, "You are just a lost prize" - neither gained nor won. I'm never ever catching up with your senses or your mind. For I've been impaled by this doubt and don't want this forever feeling. I wish fate never brings us together, so that I can pray for myself the change to Be Real, Be Here, Be Ready Again, Be Strong, Be Fierce, Be Everything.

 

I just want to say, it's fair losing you than losing it all. This is what will make me feel safer and filled in the things I have got into.

 

I have forgotten you.

 

I know it's been twisted, but to meet is the beginning of parting...

 slams the door crying

Lonesome as Transmission Tower

After a successful leap from college. I knew that this phase of elation will come to an end. 

You all knew that how much I hated this place in beginning & how this trend was reversed (if not pls do refer to my very first blog)

I will say that those were the salad days where I felt much better than currently. I used to know what was the purpose of the next day every previous night, I could tell I'm going to get a wake-up call at dark thirty & be under a barrage of questions in the CONTROL SYSTEM Class by the Professor.  ... because I just portrayed myself as if I have lost my path & would never fulfill the glory of my parents envisioned future (i.e to be a proficient Er.). Anyway I'm going to pay my respects to him after all he was teaching me one of my favorite subject. But I do think he underrated me alot.

So I used to enjoy in the POWER SYSTEM Class, As the Guy was a easy teacher. He used to crack some funny jokes in between of his expert time. He used to easily catch a drift in conversation. Here's one of it -

Once in a random Power System Class... he asked, have you seen how the transmission towers are erected upto such a height inspite of being on barren lands, rocky hills alone all day & night & the answer was obvious using a helicopter.

So this random class roused me in the most diffident & abashed stage of my life. I could finally rout out transmission tower is lonesome as a solitary speck in the sky as I was in my crowded days. So Guess now we'll join the club. As everything was so relatable that we used to share same route to any place & the most desirable feature of the journey will be getting standing ovations from them. As I was searching visually the severalised creations who were never caught by any senses or minds.

Those were one who greatly influenced me.

I'm not sure why they were always present everywhere inspite of me running being halfway broken, Cause we both were halfway broken.

So Here's to the Broken ones

I tried to be closer but they were something else, a demon - devil - a freak - all possible synonyms people knew & talking about the dangers those EHV lines poses to their loved ones, Animals, Plants, their carbon emission Vehicles (you all for better switch to electric or hybrid cars) & causing corrosion to their fancy FENCES.

So the People at last hit upon : Staying away from these Giant Pylons.

But being a Human & Electrical Engineer its unavoidable just happens that they are always nearby because I use to know their breathing sounds - the Hum of electricity that used to rattle through my bones to make me follow areas across this harsh land, hoping that soon I will find the main source.

The main source from which all ugliness, cruelty,  repulsiveness will die out.

And now I call forth all those Transmission Towers to whom I might have known to enlighten me in dark showing their bluish glow *corona discharge* & would sound me off to sleep while they wide awake.

Momently I feel blessed for mentioning the toiled & alonest Transmission Tower, somewhere on the isolated part of hill under sunny, snowy, rainy conditions as they stand by for your bloom of youth, where you'll definitely be enjoying the services of it.