The
essential concept and the first truth, where life seems irrational, meaningless,
and worsening, make me fall back to my previous condition and revert to the old
rules to maintain a higher state.
So, I
slackened my pace as I got tired and relaxed my efforts.
But what if
one of us kept on holding on? I always wondered, "Will you leave behind
your morally repugnant customs?" Being such an abominator to feel that
someone (me) has peaked in their real life.
But then, a
thought always entered my mind: "Would I ever really be enough?" So,
to not die under this question, there were as many heroic undertakings to make
everything better for you. Had you made a last desperate attempt to show some
correct behavior, we could have tinged the sky purple and pink together (the
sunsets I love and maybe you too).
Just
realizing how dope the purple-pink jerseys would have been while digging up the
playlist I made for you with a bunch of my favorite songs to listen to on a
runaway to some places where they would never find us. But I had to delete it,
basically revoking the blessings I would have given you. You actually didn't
deserve to hear this much heat.
Let's make
it easy, or let the words begin to lift from my hollow skin or fall from your
mouth just because I'm listening. Call me heartless, cold, clingy, vernacular,
or place me in the dirt.
Well, for
me now, "You are just a lost prize" - neither gained nor won. I'm
never ever catching up with your senses or your mind. For I've been impaled by
this doubt and don't want this forever feeling. I wish fate never brings us
together, so that I can pray for myself the change to Be Real, Be Here, Be
Ready Again, Be Strong, Be Fierce, Be Everything.
I just want
to say, it's fair losing you than losing it all. This is what will make me feel
safer and filled in the things I have got into.
I have
forgotten you.
I know it's
been twisted, but to meet is the beginning of parting...
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